Stay Calm

Someone spilled tea on my laptop at a cafe last night. I lost my next three podcast episodes. So the laptop is out for repair right now. Seriously thankful for my parents who bought AppleCare+ with it. This could’ve been a serious bank account overdraft, savings gone, all work gone disaster. But it wasn’t. I lost 14 hours of podcasts work. But I didn’t lose any other work, I didn’t lose my job, and I didn’t have to buy a whole new computer. 

I’m so so thankful for so much today. For the first time in my life I didn’t have a panic attack when something bad and out of my control happened. I did what I needed to do to cope, I did my best to remedy the situation, and I waited patiently, trusting that the universe would provide me with what I deserved. I put my laptop in a tub of rice, towels, and silica gel packets (thankfully there was a24 hour grocery store across the street). Then I made an appointment at the Apple store (thankfully just 5 mins away not a full hour and a half)! I slept 5 hours last night (how much I normally do) and went to and nailed a job interview in the morning before taking my computer to Apple to be looked at. I sat patiently at the bar with no distractions. Taking in the gravity of the situation and hoping it wouldn’t cost me more than $500 (all I have in my savings account). 

I walked out of Apple with a $300 bill and 5 days without my computer. That’s over $1,000 less than what I would have had to pay to replace the whole thing. And i didn’t have a panic attack. I didn’t cry. I didn’t stay up all night. I didn’t they angry. I was tense and nervous, naturally. But I wasn’t having a conniption. 

I’m proud of myself for doing my best and coping. For having enough money, for once in my life, to cover this accident. For being calm, patient, and kind enough to see that the poor freshman girl who had spilled the tea and was crying couldn’t afford to pay for it. I couldn’t really, either. But I had more than her and I’m trusting that one of the many applications I recently put in will come through for me. 

Thanks universe, or powers that be, or past me who prepared current me for this moment.